1950's

To An End Without God

"Is something that was made by a creator truly more awe-inspiring than the same thing that developed through its own means? I see that which does not have a creator to be the more. Yet while most ask if I have lost anything, I do say yes. I have lost the need to understand things as with purpose. Something meaningless is a most wonderful thing. To think all that is just happened and yet in this vast universe where everything is a product of action and reaction something like the sun came to be, and on one of its orbiting spheres life spawned, but not just life, intelligent sentient life, that is to me more mind blowing than any creator blinking this reality into existence. This is what I have gained from my new perspective. So many fear that without a god, we human become nothing more than animals with no guiding light or reason or purpose or meaning. This, however, is what truly inspires me. That I am nothing more than the net result of action and reaction is truly profound. From this enlightenment, I discover something even more profound. As I am not bound by anything more than I choose, I am free to become whatever. I do not need a god to tell me how to live, or how to act, or how to define right and wrong. People think without a god, we would be nothing less than savages. Sadly, too many of "faith" have shown that god can be used as an excuse to be just as barbaric. So, without this guiding light, why am I not killing and raping?

Society today helps in this respect. As more countries become secularized, why do we not see a breakdown of social order and chaos reigning? This is because those who fear a carnal world without god do not realize the power of humans to control themselves and their lives. As I have determined, humans created god to help them become more. In time, while we still have much to overcome and achieve, we no longer need god to watch over us. Like an orphaned child, we human created parents to teach us and guide us; but in the end, it was we who taught ourselves. Now that we have matured more, the parental unit known as a god is less relevant, if at all. From here, we can move forward, being held accountable for our actions by ourselves, like young adult. Yes we will stumble and fall, but we also learn; however slowly. This is why I cannot see God, for why should I? What does he offer me that I cannot already do? If there was not heaven and hell but a god, then as long as I respect and care for my fellow humans, then what does he truly offers? Common sense is not so common or makes sense to everyone. Perspective is everything. In this, we can still find common ground among the various reasoning of humanity. This is why I struggle to see a god in things, for I do not see a reason for one. If sin is real, if anything that makes a profane entity unworthy of the divine, then this is who I am. If I shall be damned born what I was born into, then who am I to change it? If an offer of salvation is given, then it should not be bound by dogma but by true compassion.

A god I would follow would not require praise and not look down on me for not giving it more than a simple thank you. If God could give selflessly and show it to the world without misleading statements and cryptic messages, then I would accept. However, what I see God giving me is a collar and leash. That he is someone looking for praise. What was the reason he created this reality? To make beings that would worship him? How very selfish of him. Seeing as how his creations, even the angels, are always flawed, does this reflect on this supposed perfect creator? Perhaps, or perhaps it is humans who have mislabeled God. In this, I see that humanity has no true idea who God is or what he is all about. It is for this and the above reason that I removed myself from my foundation to seek the reality of my world. In this, I have discovered something far greater. Life in a world devoid of any god is most satisfying to me because there are no strings attached. In this world of action and reaction where purpose is superficial and truth is in the minds of the beholders, I find solus. In a world were religion is corrupt and the faiths behind it are askew with human interpretation, I can no longer see reality in the ways of the old. The books of the faithful seem nothing more than additions of the former with little more than interpretations and continuation of the previous stories. I see too much humanity in God. I seek what can be seen for myself as the truth, for in the end, that is what all of us are searching for and all that we can find."

When my instructor read this (a reply to the reading in class), he dated my logic back to the 1950's. I love it! While I cannot say I understand fully the modern continuum outlook started by figures like Steven Hawkins, I know it exists. Yet apparently my logic is not in line with it. That said, to be only 5-6 decades off from the modern is not so bad. Guess I have some catching up to.